过去的回忆

12月是我最期待的月份..
因为知道圣诞节又来了..
虽然是最期待的,
但也是最难受的一个月..
呵..真矛盾..

还记得小时候..
爸妈就时常带我们到云顶玩..
每年的圣诞节都是在云顶过..
都有爸妈和姐的陪伴..
一起赏烟花..
时间久了..就只剩爸和姐陪我..
一直到我们长大了..
就只剩下姐的陪伴..

如今....就应该只剩我一个人了吧..
姐姐刚结婚 了..
刚开始..还觉得应该没问题吧?
但并不如此..
虽然说姐在结婚之前..
有时没回来睡了..
但感觉真的很不一样..
你那张超乱的床..
满台包包的桌..
还有你吵闹的声音
突然消失了......
我很不习惯..
我也很后悔没跟你谈多一些..

上个星期..你有在家..
我等你睡了..就偷偷睡在你旁边..
回忆以前我们小时的快乐时光..
在陪你试衣的那天起..我就开始不舍得了..
在那三天里,我一滴眼泪都没流..
我还显得很坚强的样子..
我不想你难过..所以我忍!
当天看你上车后眼睛都红了..
坚持!!
星期一在公司...终于忍不住了..
在厕所呆了半小时..
永远祝福你姐..

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今年的圣诞节真的特别难受..
但还好是过得很充实..
已经很久没人静静的陪我逛街了..
总算有了一个很温顺的安慰..
也在这个时间..回忆妳以前小时候的情景..
也真难得我们还能如此一起逛街..
毕竟前几年的我们变得很陌生..

虽然很短暂..但却很充实..
虽然很不舍得..
但也是无法避免的..
就如你所说的..
我们得向前看..
想不到你已有18岁的思想..
真的另我..吓了一跳..

其实我知道你想玩滑冰哦!
但我知道你很乖..所以没开口..
明年你们再回来的时候..
我们就玩个痛快咯!!

今天就写到这了..
晚安啦..

谢谢妳的安慰和关心..我真的很开心有你的陪伴..

~MeMoRy LanD2~

Every post that I have..

Is all about my memory..
We don't know what will happen tomorrow..
That's why I wrote it here..
I want my memory to last longer..

Memory is my everything..
I learn from my Memory..
I get to know who really care me..
I get to know who I should appreciate..
I grow to be better..
and I live for my Memory..

Year -1998
When I was standard 5..
As a young little kids..
My parent know that.. I like to play shooting game..
and we use to go Genting at that time..
They will definitely bring me to play this kind of game..

The game that they play with me always call
Time Crisis 2..
A very famous game at that time..
Is a 2 player link game with 3 stages..
My Dad don't know how to play..
but he still accompany me..
and I am quite stupid that time..
Spend lots of my Dad money..
but still cant event clear even 1 stage..
Is really a waste of money..
After a couples of years..
Left only my Sister accompany me with patient..
She never play but no complain at all..

....................................Until....................................

Current - 2010

This game is still an active game for me..
Whenever I am feel bad..
or under pressure..
I will be in front of the screen and start shooting..
Even they are no longer accompany aside me..
But.. I can still feel of the time they are with me at the pass..

Some people might think that I am childish..
and also outdated since the latest is crisis 4 or 5?
I don't really care about it..
I just wanna do something that I want..
Something that refresh my Memory..

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I use to play linked while last time..
Because still a newbies..
Keep on dying and dying..
That's why need some help from others..

But since last few year..
I had change to play.. Solo..
The reason that make me change my mind is..
Getting lesser people to play this game..
and less reliable player to share the burden..

Gene did play link with me while form 5..
and we play quite well too.. :)
That's the last memory that I have..
Which I play linked in this game..

Time flew and everything change..
That's what we believe..
and that's the facts we need to accept..

I have already get use to.. it..
Even there is some sudden crisis happen..
But is now getting back to normal..
and this would be the best choice to me..

This game is already be with me for 12 years..
Last 2 days.. I made something make me surprise..
Whereby.. I break my score board..


A record which I think how come I can reach that score at last time..
With a huge different..

From here..
I learn something through my Memory.. Where..
Think will never change anything..
You will Only see the different..
When You make a Move..

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Take this chance to quote something..

Memory is the mother of all wisdom.

Memory can glean, but can never renew. It brings us joys faint as is the perfume of the flowers, faded and dried, of the summer that is gone.

Memories were a welcome reprieve from the worries of my day.

Nobody ever forgets where he buried the hatchet.

So live that your memories will be part of your happiness.

Memory is the treasury and guardian of all things.

Memory is the diary that we all carry about with us.

It may be no more than a memory, but if it is a worthy one I shall not regret the price.

Memory in youth is active and easily impressible; in old age it is comparatively callous to new impressions, but still retains vividly those of earlier years.

There’s no disappointment in memory, and one’s exaggerations are always on the good side.

Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

We don’t remember days; we remember moments.

A diplomat is a man who always remembers a woman’s birthday but never remembers her age.

It doesn’t matter who my father was; it matters who I remember he was.

Nothing improves the memory more than trying to forget.

The true art of memory is the art of attention.

The palest ink is better than the best memory.

Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory.

~Thank You~

时间..时速..时光..

啊~~~(SIGH)..
又是一天很自然的早晨惊醒..
睡不着了..
所以就跑去洗澡..
还真够冷的呢..
不过..就还蛮清爽叻..呵呵..

两年与两个月的时间..
既然比我想象中还来得不一样..

每件事情的起因,
都有他的因素..
所以我相信这就是我的命运..
让我体会到不一样的感觉..
让我的生命更加的精彩..

可是,
灿烂的时光就是如此的短暂..
我已好久..没笑得那么开心了..
那一种完全没有烦恼的开心与笑声..
早已不会再我的身上感受到了..
就再那短短的几分钟吧?
就被几通电话拉回了现实的世界..

我并没有埋怨..
因为我知道..
不属于你的东西,就是不属于你的东西..
我不贪心..
对我来说..这..已足够了..

还能够使用头脑思考的我,
时间..要说长不长,要说短不短..

再加上时间过得如此的快..
我也得好好的拼了..

而所有我经历过的回忆..
将会永远陪伴着我..
也是因为有你们的存在..
使到我的生活如此的精彩..
谢谢~

My 2 years exp

2 years of experience..
Seems to be a short time..

But..
I had face lots of interesting experience..
which I think..
is nt everyone have the chance to exp it..
going for my 1st flight trip soon..
and I will take this time to refresh everything..

Is a bit rush now to write everything..
But i wanna post something before I went out..

Will u feel very exciting while gonna meet ur gf/bf on the next day?
and will u feel bad until cry while left?

That's something I had experience..
and it makes us more on appreciate the time v been tgt..
Is a very hard time for us..
but is wonderful when v meet up..

Distance..

Remember this view?
I shud have take a nite time view..
As is the real view we look at while sat nite..

This place is located in Johor..
Where is near to Singapore..

From the place I took this pic to Malaysia custom..
Is only a 10-15 min..
But is very far away if we look from the view..

Sat nite..
I show u something about the ways of Malaysian work in Singapore..
A rough pic of how they drive to Sg everyday..
and Yes, as u said.. is far and tired..

But STILL they cont repeating the tiring life..
cos at the end.. they get wat they want..
In my case..
Is even worst as u noe..
even far away from sg..
Tiring..
But v have a sweet time..
doesn't matter.. rite?
=)

We dont know what will happen tomorrow..
Therefore,
I will appreciate our this rls..

Ermm.. Sighs..

Ya, its truth,
Things happen with a reason..

Whatever u have done,
it will have a outcome..
Its just depends on is a bad or good outcome..

The week before this..
I meet v my boss quite frequently..
he told me that..
We will be meeting more frequently..
because I am leaving the company..

After some discussion and argument..
I start to think lots of thing..
especially while I am alone..

Am I really Wrong?
Or Because He Duno About Me?
I will find out this ans someday..
For the moment..
I consider myself as wrong..
Because he is an experience guy..

Responsible..
Ok..
Lets let go it slowly..
In a better way to suits working environment..
zzzzzzz,,

Countdown 14 days more..
I will be v KJCF..
Pressure nvr end..
Ermm................................................................

Finally.. Decision Being Made..

My life.. is colorless..
After joining in the co..
I spend most of the time in the co..
7:45am-6pm..
Tat is 11 hours of my time for a day.
Plus my sleeping time 5 hours.
Driving + dinner = 3 hours.
Shower and some cleaning stuff = 1 hour.
How many time i left for myself?
Yes, is 4 hours.
What can I do in this 4 hours?
not much.. surf net, play games.
Tats what I can do now..

I am tired..
Tiring of facing those stupid figure..
Which no matter how I count..
the figure wont match..
and makes my report even worst.
Relationship with superior doesn't seems to be good..

Therefore,
I have decided.. to give resignation letter..
No more reason for me to stay there..
As I never given a chance to learn..
I have a nice time in warehouse..
Being taught probably..
But not in sales..

I was proud to be 1 of the KJCF Sales Exe..
I have tried my best to keep on..
But, tat's it..

Thank you very much to my boss who hired me as 1 of the employee in KJCP..
What you have teach me be4, I wil always remember..
But there is something I would like to let u noe..

I am not an ego person even I am the only son in the family..
Sometime I keep quiet while u scolding me..
it doesn't mean I am angry..
I am actually blaming myself Y keep on repeat same mistakes..

But It doesn't matter for u and me now..
As now I am jz a person who going to left the company soon..

~Cont again while my last day in KJCP.~

Bro's 21st birthday woohoo~!

After a year of celebrating frenz's 21st birthday..

Cant imagine that I stil got chance to wish my bro in this year..

yeah.. thats rite.. my bro's 21st birthday party.
being invited.. lols...

Reach there around 8:30pm..
Mana saya tau ur party is at 1st floor o?
Tak beritahu pun~
I ma go btm find u lo.. swt betul.

Anyway, thx 4 the invitation..
I appreciated it..
get to know her brother and their frenz..
nice to meet u all. :)
and thx for chatting v me..
abo really duno wat to do over there. =x

here is some "pic" tat i have took over there.
darryl-ttc.blogspot.com
Wish Comes True~

Camera at here ler bro.. =.=

the key bigger than mine ==
(but mine nicer ler? xD)


Ya.. my Bro and me ( v a tired oily face ==)
my bro leng chai? xp

Welcome to 21st club bro.. lols..
All the best to you.. ^^v

1 year and 7 Month Suffering.

1st.. I am proud to be with my company.
But..
I have to say that..
I already give up myself in this company..

After working for so long in this company.
I feel stress for nth.

My boss..
always say us no initiative to work for the company.
BUT..
while we have the initiative to work..
What we have get?
WE GET NTH!!!!!!!!!!!

I have work until 11pm before..
imagine is from 7:45am to 11pm at nite..
But what we get? zzzz..
Company wont think that is our initiative..
instead shud be a MUST for us..

company keep on makes me feel disappointed..
As a sales person in the company..
I do not have any petrol allowance.. FINE!
company say I am stil new in the company..
But even I request to claim back for car repair cost..
THAT also I cant get back!!

Thats WHAT I MEAN!!
we as the sales person.. we use our own car..
sometime even send heavy stuff to customer..
that is our initiative!!
BUT WAT WE GET????
0 (ZEROOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!)
my 1 month salary use just to repair my car??!
WTF!!!!!!!!

SO.........? Y shud I be so initiative???
any benefits to me???
So I dont really care now..
when is the time to back home..
I will just back home..

Even no matter how you are the 1 who paid me salary..
But do you fair to me?
my works are more than others..
but my salary are totally unacceptable.

we all work like hell everyday..
but every month still suffering with finance problem..
WHAT FOR??!!??!?!!

Is that to mean that fresh graduate can be threat as so??
Low salary with lots of job???

Am I going to get scold again tomorrow for nth?
Am I going to work like hell again tomorrow??
Am I going to failed my plan tomorrow cos of ur sudden job???

This few Q keep appear in my mind every sunday nite!!

ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I JUST CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY REAL INCOME IS ONLY RM1500!!!!!!!
AFTER JANUARY INCREMENT STILL IS RM15++!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DUN EXPECT TOO HIGH ON ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THINK OF UR WORKERSSSS MORE AS A BOSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DONT JUST THINK OF UR OWN BENEFITS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OR ELSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THOSE REALLY WORK FOR THE COMPANY
WILL DEFINITELY RESIGN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ! SIGH!

The Way~ Of Appreciate...~

1- lose it only you want to appreciate.

2- appreciate it at the 1st right time.

Which 1 mostly ppl stand?

V know it by our own....

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My Trip To Singapore.

Lots of thing keep on appear while I plan to go Singapore.
My Company side.
My Finance.
My Parents.
Even Myself.

It was like stopping me to go Singapore.
Badly sick while last minute.
Car Broke down.
my Budget all goes to many kinds of Repair Cost.
Increment little.. no ang pao from Co.
Parents stop me going to Singapore.
and EtC...

But I just cant accept this small Failure.
I plan again!
v the budget I have now.
without wasting anytime.
I call to Singapore Hotel and also Coach Service.
Check & Go..

Sat-03.04.10
Reach Corus Hotel to wait for the Coach.
Feel very excited. Cos after So much thing happen.
I was here. Ready to go and look for you dear. ^^
My Bus depart at 3pm.
and I heard the bus driver talkin to other driver outside that:
I Meet You In Singapore.
and I jz cant imagine i am going to Singapore d.
Since I was like a Kampung Boy.
Where pork Dickson is the most far place i been.

Food was serve in the coach.
and there is toilet available.
Sits are comfortable. its worth to paid.
5 hrs journey.

Yup. I am here Finally.
Across the bridge. and its getting excited.
look around like a kampung boy. lols..

Destination : HarbourFront City Centre
My fon cant call out. no roaming.
look around to look for public fon.
and..... YA!! no need call le.
Cos you found me. lolss..
tq dear.. xp

shop around there for a while.
and wow.. there was so many kinds of chocolate there.
but i nvr buy any.. =p
We have our dinner at mcD nearby ur hse.
send you back home around 1am.
and myself. be a homeless guy for tat nite.
cos i only book hotel for 1 nite which is sun. not enuf money.
So I rest nearby the 24hr mcD.
Walk alone at the street.
But i feel secure.
Sit v few guys which sleeping over there.
and I look at the sky.
I feel very calm even I am damn tired.
Cos I am here. stepping Singapore land.
*I make it here.*

I stare at the flat which you stay until the next morning.
and ya!! v meet again. xp

Have our little breakfast and get to check in my hotel.
after shower.. *fainted* fall asleep le. =p
too tired le o.

v have our dinner at a restaurant in Bugis.
at my dear not feeling very well.
So we go back rest earlier.

and Tick.. Monday d..
zzzzzzzzzz..........
have to go back le. but dear stil not feeling very well.
make me so worried bout u.

Everything too rush.
not much pic i have taken.
Only know that. I feel very bad while the bus reversing. cries~
slowly and slowly getting far away from you.
until when I reach KL. everything back to zero again.

But v appreciate the time v spend together.
and thank you dear for taking care of me while i slept.
It was a sweet time.
Muackks~ xp

and very surprise that you have place a present for me into my beg.
as my birthday present. lols. hehe. blek=)

I Love You Dear... <3

Here is some pic that I have took in sg.

My 1st pic in SG.. jz reach at 9:00pm

the place that dear found me. lolss..
take this pic while going back.

HarbourFront

When Taking this pic feel very bad. sob.
cos going back le.

The way going back to Johor. :(

My present from dear ^^v

Sign Board in the Coach toilet.
Lols...

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I Face my Death for few second.

My luck was getting bad and bad recently.
From be4 CNY until now..

I am having a bad stomache while nite time
while 11:30pm..
i feel very hungry and look for food..
only found some CNY left over egg rolls..
quite a lot.. so decide to eat tat..

While eating that time.. duno how..
All the food was like being suck into my mouth..
maybe some into my nose d ==
and started cant breath..
start struggling around and try to breath..
but end up fall down on floor like a dying fish..
is getting dark..
i saw a shadow in front me.. duno is my sister or not ==
at the moment.. suddenly i have a very bad cough..
and only i start feel the oxygen..
and i am safe..
saw my sister running out from kitchen v water for me..
huuu~~~~ now keep coughing like hell..
zzz...
no more egg rolls for me..

SIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Chinese New Year Post 2010

Finally..
CNY 2010 ended.

My Interet was down for the whole week while CNY.
So dont have time to update any blog.
So wait until today only upload.

Honestly,
nth much for this to write.
but I was damn bored and moody on the week.

Fri- 12/02
my car's break not function.
Repair- RM210

Sat- 13/02
my internet down.
zzz

Sun- 14/02
Pc broke down. zzz.
and no ang pao for today.

Mon- 15/02
cant go mummy side for visit.
So i been to nearer cc to play dragonica.
buthen.. cannot play.
i go to other cc. can play. but super duper lag.
swt. so i off it and go snooker alone.
tat's my day for mon.

Tues- 16/02
do the same thing again.
but I really beh tahan d.
so i call up Lao eh..
and we meet up at kp.
while i was waiting them.
I received a very surprise call!
a call that change my mood for the day.
lols... 4568396846639 keke.
finally i was nt alone d.
Kai acc me go play snooker.
and lao eh come along. :)
thank you very much.
being to gene's house and oso tuck long place.
then we go cc.. x D
thanks everyone.

Fri- 19/02
Send my pc for repair.
repair cost- rm400 -,-
i gonna go crazy when he tell me that.
"sry, but ur D drive file everything cant be restore"
ur Hardisk was not functioning"
I was like.........................................................
my photo..................................
ALL GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOT A PIECE LEFTTTTTTTTT..........................
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
Until now when I think of this i really like goin crazy d...

Luckily i have this blog with me..
i posted up some of my pic at here.
but some nt even post yet.
sigh....................................
damn down.

Fri & Sat
mostly spend up with lao eh.
lols.. my g@y partner anyway. x D
go eat bah kut teh at morning and go cc play whole day. @@

Tues- Dinner with customer (开工酒1)
I only drink 2 glasses of XO.
and i was like blur blur d.
feel very bad. some more need serve customer.
really bad feel. zzz.

Thurs-Dinner with customer (开工酒2)
this day i drink a lot. red wain.
XO.. some more being scold by boss.
he take my XO glass up and ask me among so many ppl.
*Benn!* you rear fish???"
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...
Drink until i beh tahan again. i ran to the toilet.
when drive b..
i was almost fall asleep d..
at this time, I received a surprise call again..
lols... u are always there with me o..
thank you very much OL. ROFL
long time nvr call u so d.

tat's it. for my CNY post.
Nth much le.
Tq. Nitess everyone.

Time, Weather, Place.

Weather is getting hot n hot recently..
and this feeling make me really out of mood..
The time now is 4:53pm..

and it makes me miss the life while i studying in TARC..
the feeling is like staying in my hostel room v my frenz..
chatting while waiting for time to go for swim & basketball..

and I am Freaking miss that life!!!!!!!!!!

Can i just click undo do reverse the time?
sigh..
zzz..
=.=v